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look west lyrics

Long Shot

Light slips through the shade 

It blankets you in sunshine  

Glistens off your face

Plays with every curve and lash and fine line

 

The things that I want

The things I claim as mine

The ones that endure

Find meaning with passing time

 

We’re not done yet

Not by a long shot

There still time left

To work through the soft spots

And turn this around

 

I’ve been confused

Around all these changes

How to fit in

These whirlwind life stages

 

The things that I want

The ones I keep around

The ones that endure

Time cannot trample down

 

Light slips through the shade

And blankets you in sunshine

Glistens on your face

Plays with every curve and lash and fine line

 

You cover your face

You race to the window

To open all the shades

And welcome the light of this day

 

 

A Thing to Behold

For every sad tale

Of love gone astray

Or love that burns so bright

It night turns into day

 

I trade such extremes

For a good long run

By all means have a cry

Just make a quick one

 

You are mine to have and hold

For all time so I’ve been told

 

In-curable like a common cold

Solid rock, not fools gold

A thing to behold

 

Love’s no game

Nor death to feign

At times the heart must follow the brain

 

Poets will scoff

Boy bands will shrug

But I’ll trade their mawkish ways

For what I know of love

 

I don’t want fantasy

My lonely days are done

Rain is no big thing

When you’re the lucky one

 

 

What’s Coming Next

An old song that came on

Made me think how since you’ve gone

The world has changed completely

And then again not at all

I got stuck somehow

Worried about tomorrow

At the expense of here and now

 

 If I could

Swallow whole

The words that came between us

As if I could I’d

Somehow control

The ways that we were different

But I forgive me

How about you?

The years of holding fast

As if they were made to last

Who was all of that for?

I don’t know anymore

So little I’ve done seems clear

Who benefitted here?

Who was I saving?

 

I have served

Long hard time

For the words that came between us

I take back every one of mine

Every time I was ungracious

 

And I forgive me

How about you?

 

 So who’s got time to waste?

How I would love to see your face

Before another winter

Before what’s coming next

Sadly Matched

The sun sets around 4:30

In December in LA

The moon sits high

A few minutes before

The sunlight fades away

 

You say that you love me

But not the city that I love

You made it clear

It was one of the two

That I’d soon be rid of

 

I couldn’t make you stay

I couldn’t make you stay

I could have followed you

But I watched you walk away

Darling I’m never leaving LA

I’m going to die here in LA

 

Seems to me that it was a series

Of small and then smaller things

And I shudder to think

That maybe you just

Didn’t find me interesting

 

You call us

The land of bad movies and traffic and parking citations

Your bias is clear

And sadly matched

By a lack of imagination

 

Your memory

Plays like a movie

With a melancholy end

I play the part of the villain

With a stance that I can’t defend

 

But as I look toward the future

On this winters day

It’s 80 degrees

Here at the beach

And I think I’ll be ok

Best Plans

 

I’m here late tonight

The plant is dark

And impolite

The glow from my cell phone lights my way

 

I make my way through racks

Of boxes and paper stacks

And old machines that have seen better days

 

I came here reluctantly

My best plans at bay

Without the slightest notion

Things could turn out this way

Fading away

 

They sold the place in fall

It was time to let it go

You know there are a lot of ways to live

 

I really can’t recall

Wanting for anything

Or deserving more than you had to give

 

I came here reluctantly

With no intent to stay

When I lock the doors for the last time

It’ll feel like my birthday

 

You can keep your pictures

My memory is suspect

I won’t be looking over my shoulder

I’m too worried about what’s next

 

I’ll be here all day

A lot to move and throw away

There’s a world of memories to fade, fade away

 

 

Bad Man

I do not have it in me

To be a bad guy

I’ve got a sense of duty

That shadows me

I don’t even have to try

 

I do not have it in me

To be a bad friend

It may not amount to much

But I’ll give you what I can

 

But with you I want to be a bad man

With you I want to be a bad man

Everything you want

It’s nothing like what I am

So with you I want to be a bad man

 

I wish I had what it takes

To break your young heart

It should quick

It should be easy

It’s so eager to be torn apart

 

But I do not have it in me

To be truly mean

Even shitfaced drunk

I’m happy and I’m clean

 

That boy you hang out with

A selfish vain creep

You give him all of your sweet love

All he gives you back is grief

 

I do not have it in me to be a bad guy

But baby for your love

Just you watch me try

 

Simple and Clean

 

I see my heart clear in your eyes I used to kid myself I could be someone else before I realized I’m bound to fate 

Bound to reprise

 

A bond so strong

Simple and clean

I know that I love you

But not sure what that means

 

An apprenticeship, a finishing school

You taught how to take care of myself, you taught me to be cruel

I can’t tear away

From the mess of you

 

I see my face there in your face

The mirror it stares back and laughs with immutable distaste

But I search for peace

I long for grace

 

My Terrible Song

You’re the voice in the wind that calls me back

Like a something I forgot, like a looming panic attack

My memory is fiction I’m pretty sure that that’s a fact

Nothing I touch really leaves here intact

 

A hot day in the hills I’m dreaming about the shore

I start looking west I start wanting more

I’m a man in full with a foot out the door

Why do you make me stand up like there is something to stand for?

 

My terrible song

I gave my life just to sing along

Just to walk along with you

As the sun goes down

Where would you have me go now?

What am I supposed to do?

Born to play the fool for you?

 

The waves gently caress the shore

Like a lover that’s terrified to be scorned

I knew my place years and years before

Do you really have to be so cruel anymore?

 

My terrible song

I gave my life just to sing along

Just to walk along with you

As the sun goes down

Where would you have me go now?

What am I supposed to do?

When I know my fate

Was to waste and wait

In the service of you

 

You’re the voice in the wind that calls me back

Like a something I forgot, like something I never had

The things you can’t quite touch are the things that drive you mad

All this time past and I’ve still got it bad

 

 

Roll Out the Future

 

I still whisper to her

Though I’m rarely asked

Roll out the future  

I’ve no crush on the past

I’ve been well apprised of all things not meant to last

Since you’re gone

 

All these years on

Man I’ve swallowed their heft

Just 3 miles south on Sunset

Up the hill to the left

No turn of events that I might have guessed

 

Since you’re gone

I’ m stuck in mud

 

That same sad song

Just drones on

But draws no rise from me

 

That same sad song

Holds no charm

I’ve finally let it be

 

The game it goes on

The player’s just shift

They treat me like I’m some toy to re-gift

Even these blues could use a sharp face-lift

Since you’re gone

 

The Tape 

 

You were born adrift 

In the winter of 08’

From the old country

To the shores of New York State

Off to the brave new world

With a cross to bear and a whispered prayer for something better for these girls

 

Did your father try

In vain to reconcile

Your mother’s dying

During the birth to their third child?

Did he lose the will to live

On a desperate night on the Brooklyn side of the Williamsburg bridge?

 

The path you walked was hard as stone

Right from the start to feel so alone

I never knew what you had to do to make your way home

 

Your stepmother Rose

As sweet as she might be

Didn’t take to you like she did to Betty

You try to disappear

Or be anywhere with anyone far away from here?

 

The path that you walked was long and cold

Alone in a crowd at 5 years old

I never knew what you went through to make your way home

 

With respect to all 

The stories that I’ve heard

I trust I will take you at your word

When I see your seasoned face

I’ll say a prayer for the child there who finally found her place

Summer Flame

 

You were a summer flame, so blue and warm and deep

Wishes and whims I had, that have drifted off to sleep

Were light and alive while you were mine to keep

When the sun was still on my face

 

Your resolve, so bright eyed and so free

Your chastity and heaving curiosity

Your knowing gaze and settled certainty

Oh the way that you looked at me

 

I think of you now when the sunlight starts to fade

And every time that I leave when maybe I could have stayed

And in the chill of the morning when the light shines through the haze

My love of my summer days  

 

How could we ever begin to know

How fast the summer would come and go?

 

Those strong shoulders, you were wise beyond your years

I was older but still so wet behind the ears

I could not fight past my callow fears

So I walked away from the sun

 

 

So Glad It’s Mine

 

I’ll take a back road

To check back on you

There still places I’m not welcome

There’s things I just can’t do

 

I’ll make a detour

And talk to the source

And consider an adjustment

To my present course

 

4 friends with birthdays

All around the same time

But above ground we’ll celebrate just one

And  I am awfully glad it’s mine

 

 “Just this one”

Became “early hours”

I put another day to waste

I wish I’d never got the taste

 

You can believe

That you’re not to blame?

Hey denial

Have you met shame?

 

I’ve lost count sadly

Of Novembers since then

No less than 7 or 8

Tell me it’s not 10??

 

I’ll take a back road

A slow sober drive

Hope I’m here for a long while

It’s good to be alive

 

 

My Love is Strong Lyrics

Southern Night

There’s a light on

But the door’s barred

No one answers when you call

Some kids graffitied the walls

And the whole town

Seems a ghost town

And it’s no living this way

Driving past here each day

Till you’re gone closed and shuttered

Right back where you started

You’re a passing tail light in the southern night

And the west coast

It’s a dream that

Can start out feeling just right

Then turn on you in the night

Till you’re gone

As good as for good

You’re so far lost that it’s understood

You’re a passing tail light

In the southern night

This played out

In a fashion that I never thought could be

I got your number

From that friend of ours

I thought I’d give it a try

I thought I’d waste a few dimes

You see I’ve got plenty of time

Now that you’re… 

Understood

I laughed in Michael's face

And I shot him where he stood

He had it coming

Damn if it didn’t feel good

I ain’t no righteous man

I ain’t no Robin Hood

They say I’m going pay

That’s well

Understood

So they’ll tie the knot around my head

And they’ll sling a rope around the tree that's above the river bed

I’ve no remorse I’ve no regret

Man I feel like I’m already dead.

Michael was my friend

We came up side by side

Well we fought for fortune

We fought for pride

But when he stabbed me in the back

When he broke faith cheated and lied

I plotted my revenge

And I would not, could not be denied

I made my choices young

I fashioned myself smart

I did my level best

Kept my head down and I worked hard

But with one act of rage

Everything’s fallen apart

And now my fate is sealed

I’m headed head long into the dark

Perfectly

Yours is the last face that I see at night

You roll over and I read until I dream

Why struggle with this world 

And what it may or may not all mean

When yours is the last face I get to see?

I listen to songs that I wrote years ago

I sure knew things then that I no longer know

I was a child my mind was free

Unburdened by responsibility 

Time has left me with much to concede

But I know one thing

Completely

You are the one thing

That I did perfectly

We can lock horns like wild angry rams

Fighting for household dominance

It’s a circular dance

Part stomp part prance

As we both settle in and take a stance

But I know one thing

Completely

You are the one thing

That I did perfectly

This is a sick as I remember you being

Like a microscope it helps you clearly see

The burden of ego and the unimportance of the periphery

Or just that you mean everything to me

Yours is the last face that I see at night

You roll over and I read until I dream

Why struggle with this world 

And what it may or may not mean

When yours is the last face I get to see?

Fooled By the Bottle

It’s good to feel your glow

It’s nice to be here again

I feel warm and slow

I feel right as rain

But when I wake up rough

After raising Cain

I wish I’d never gone where I have been

And that this will be the last time I drink you in

You’re always here with me

But clearly not my friend

Fooled by the bottle again

The sun goes down

My spirit gets free

Partly the promise of you

Partly the devil in me

Do I have to kill myself

To get to feeling free?

The things that I have lost

The things I might have done

The time I threw away

The fool that I’ve become

Set em’ up barkeep

Let’s get to gettn’ numb

Summer Rain

Well the night has been burned away

And you and I are not the same in the cold light of day

You were good, hell you were great

Now you’re acting kind of strange and pulling away

And your love

It falls like summer rain

Soft and warm

It’s gone quick as it came

And I wonder just who you are my friend

I’ll play along

I’ll play your game

I’ll play along

With you today (any day)

Now love, it is hard enough

Without all that game playing and lying and cheating and other crazy stuff

And I want you by my side

Will you take me to heart or take me for a ride?

Bad Man

I do not have it in me

To be a bad guy

I’ve got a sense of duty

That shadows me

I don’t even have to try

I do not have it in me

To be a bad friend

It may not amount to much

But I’ll give you what I can

But with you I want to be a bad man

With you I want to be a bad man

Everything you want

It’s nothing like what I am

So with you I want to be a bad man

I wish I had what it takes

To break your young heart

It should quick

It should be easy

It’s so eager to be torn apart

But I do not have it in me

To be truly mean

Even shitfaced drunk

I’m happy and I’m clean

That boy you hang out with

A selfish vain creep

You give him all of your sweet love

All he gives you back is grief

I do not have it in me to be a bad guy

But baby for your love

Just you watch me try

Full Disclosure

I plot my greeting when

I catch you getting coffee at the AA meeting

It’s like I’ve been court ordered to get all hot and bothered

I can be kind of shy

But I’m sure that was a smile I saw when we locked eyes

So girl take a chance

On a man who’s got time on his hands

The night is looking up

You make my lot feel like a half full cup

I’ve had a couple of tough years

My house is underwater

I’m practically a squatter

Yeah I’m drowning in debt

I’m so close to breaking bad

You are a troubled beauty

I like your crooked smile and love what it does to me

So let’s make a date

To carp and commiserate

So what’s the point of looking back?

I’m a couple of years shy of my first major heart attack

But with you on my arm

We can take this world on

Valentine

It’s just a made up holiday

To express our broke down love

Candy hearts and bouquets

Gave way to some dark stuff

So you’ll float away

And that’ll be just fine

Cause the more you let me into your life

The less I see you in mine

So long valentine

It’s a cold and bitter middle

Underneath that sweet veneer

And what I did to turn you inside out

You never could make clear

And the night is quiet

You look fine by candlelight

And I’m taking in all this calm

Before what is bound to be our next fight

My love is strong

I’m in a fix

In a tight and sticky space

 I’ve been stuck here from

The moment saw your face

You’re unforgettable and all kinds of fine

You’re my everything but you’ll never be mine

I'm not a prude

I'm not afraid of fun

But I've got to take stock

In the man that I've become

Darlene my love is strong

Darlene my love is strong

I think we know this will come and go

Like a sad country song

Here

You’re missing all of the non-stop holiday exploits

The endless happenings crammed into the short days

Where are you now, Denver, Nashville, Detroit?

All I know is you’re miles away from LA

I think I got old

This past year

Truth be told

I need you here

I know you’ve got a million things to tend to

And another million or two to do and see

But of all of those things that you have to tend to

Don’t you forget that one of them is still me

If I’ve been cold

If I’ve been unclear

All truth be told

I need you here

I followed you through the wasted wiles of our youth

I’d follow you through ten feet of frozen snow

I followed you when it made good sense to stay put

I’ve followed you long enough not to know

That in time you’ll go

You’ve made that clear

But for a little while

I need you here

Want Me Too

It’s a steady crawl to your front door

A contemplative journey

It’s one I’ve made a few times before

But never this carefully

We’ll just have to wait and see

My course is mapped my aim is true

And I hoped that you might want me too

I know I’ve got some work to do

But I thought that you might want me

The young girl that I used to know

Is now a self-assured beauty

And I walk with more purpose

And with more humility

We’ll just have to wait and see

Wind Blown

When did we become

So undone

I’ll sleep it off

I’ll be gone by the morning sun

I’ve got a bunch of thoughts

That don’t amount to much

Because in the end

It comes down to this one

I did not decide

To run and hide

To say goodbye

For a lack of love

And I don’t want to stay here knowing

You want something more

I am not the one I’m just the one that came before 

I know your world will brighten

When I walk out your door

We were not built  

For the long haul 

Still and all

This was not just some spring affair

This is not fixed

With a coat of paint

We are a demolition

We are a world wear and tear

I did not decide

To let this slide

Because my hair got wind blown

Soft Landing

Just close those lovely eyes

Forget how this world can be so unkind

When it’s cold and hard and demanding

Let me be your soft landing

I know you’ve cause to hide

But come out now, come see me

With your eyes open wide

Trade some of that fear for understanding

Let me be your soft landing

If you let me in

You’ll have a true friend

If you let me in

I’ll help you love again

I’m not the kind to pray

But my faith in you is as pure and true

As this perfect summers day

You’re strong, you’re bright, you’re commanding

Darling you are my soft landing